During mediation I only wanted reinstatement or reversal of status from terminated to resigned. To get a fresh start.that was 2 yrs ago. Loan rates became higher,bills got bigger and life became harder. Now, when im reminded of the things i had to go thru, i have nothing but resentment for them. I can man up and suck it up, but if i do that, i'll probably end up worse than i satrted. Just trying to have a fresh start, without having to be connected to them. Of all that's happened, going back would probably do me more harm than good in the long run. If I did really win reinstatement on the case, it would come as a punishment for me not to be given a choice. Also, both of our appeals, me for backwages and them complete turnover of decision would probably increase our animosity towards each other. It would not be a safe and conducive workplace for someone like me to be in. They actually got off scott free in this,me drowned in debts for the last 2 yrs and them just letting me work with them again and probably try to do a variation of the same once more. If possible, I would like to avoid anything that may spark into trouble, it's better to be safe rather than find out the limits of what I can take. Besides, I just plain dont trust them anymore to hold my best interests at heart. If there's a way to present evidence of the psychological damage I got during these past 2 yrs I will oresent it. Provided I wont shell out any more cash than I already have. Decision states no damage payment awarded to me, i'll try to appeal until all appeals are exhausted if it still doesnt work. I'll have to live with that, but i dont want to live thru working with them all over again. I dont see anything gud happening even if I try to force or fake it.