instead, we exchange hurtful words... actions etc. until after almost a decayed, he finally told me. and i finally found out in diffirent ways that those things i felt as an :intuition" were so real, but he had deny it and blame all our fights to me , that it was onlyin my head. alll of it... i end up not knowing anything , after 2years of being eparated with him, i tried to patch the pain by having a boyfriend but it made it worst. i thought he will dohis best and take me back. instead he had a GF. he convince most of the people around us including my family that he had the best and good intention of doing what he did. but that was actually lies... he is different when behind close doors when there is only me and him. i believe that if not becasue of him taking away my self worth and my confidence as what i was always known, that i wouldnt have been mking the wrong decisions and the self destructive stage i had been through... i am now very very angry inside and with lots of frustrations... but until now he still blames it all to me , that i cause it. he was married and applied for nullity and was granted last 2010. we were married last 2002. i really want to take my life back but i am having a hard time already having nothing and struggling...only because he want to cover his own dirt . please tell me what i can do and how i can make it possible for me to take back what i used to be and start a a knew. i dont want to loose my baby and my new one from a mistake relationship i mentioned. help me please. he is well connected and this blog might be monitored. thank you.